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2011-06-07T01:12:00.000-07:00

A LESSON I’VE LEARNT AT HOME

Well basically, holidays cannot be more meaningful than this mid sem break. Literally, I’m at home with my dad, mom, brothers, sisters including my newly born sis. Trust me, I've never seen any baby cuter than her. She’s so affectionate, looking so full of love and very attractive. Her white subtle, delicate cheeks just drive me crazy. Her round eyes, curly-labyrinthine semi-blonde hair makes me love her even more! I bet she’s the cutest of all, and that’s why she’s named Nazneen; which means, beautiful and attractive (kinda driving me to ponder of my homeroom advisor Ms Nurun Nazneen, a cute demurring little teacher J ). But that’s just part of today’s thought. What I'd like to share with all my readers today is about, a mistake I've done before; which literally I tend not take it seriously; but it is serious, and I learnt this in my holiday.

Holidays are just too plain to me. For me, it’s not that highly-anticipated, highly-awaited. Just a period of time to be free of laws, tight scrutiny and magnifying glasses – I'm trying to relate with Nazrin Nazman in school, who sometimes felt unexposed and not being himself. I'm a free-thinker, I'm open to all ideas, I can listen to any conversation, I’m okay with bad words, I don’t take things so seriously. Life’s for fun! One of my closest peeps, Hajar Aziz noted me as a hedonist who just slaved myself in the edge of fun and glories (Gaga’s newest single, The Edge of Glory). I'm not a hedonist Hajar, but I love world! But things are not going that fun when I'm in school. You know, laws are okay. But people’s perceptions and expectations are the problems. We are of all walks of life, and we are all different in our ways. Different ways mean different thinking. So you can do everything as long as it’s not over the top. But for me, who the hell cares, this is my world and I'm gonna colour it with my paints!

In any tests or exams in my school, I'm not that worried. 2011 started off well, so did my works. My non-academic tasks got many and many each days and I did enjoy doing them. Human beings can’t do things all at once. But at first I didn’t believe this statement. I went with the days just like usual, ignoring books. I’m very agog in Additional Mathematics, that’s why I tend to take for granted in my Mathematics. And my slightly deteriorating marks for Maths really kicked my ass off. But still, I considered Maths easy and didn’t deserve full attentions. And it went on until my last Final Sem Exam. OMG! Maths questions drove me crazy. Everybody wasn’t troubled by it but it was me who hardly gasping for air, answering Maths questions. I felt teary, I need my mom, I need my Cikgu, I need my closest friends to be with me. But I was all alone. Finally, time was up and I've got no time left to do last check. Starting from that moment, I've never put Maths in the last list.

And 2 days ago, I was teaching my little 7-year old brother English. The questions are ABC; can it be the substitution of SPM questions? While I was teaching him, he was too vexed, and literally annoyed with the easy questions. He gotta do and copy. Do and copy. And I told him, ‘Why don’t you just skip this and do other questions?’ And he abruptly said, ‘No way. My teacher asked me to do this, and I shall gotta follow it her way’ His words realize me that all this while, I'm being too complacent. It means something rare, unusual to me. Before this, teachers often give me easy questions as revisions. And I continuously, keep on quoting ‘They are easy. No need to do homework’. But I'm perplexed. In most exams, my marks came out not up to target. Well, I got the denouement. This is my mistake. The answer for this mystery is that, “I've been abandoning easy questions, the baby steps. I've been ignoring what teachers said.” Starting from now on, I realized, I have to do homework. I'm going to be a good boy. Kinda interesting how I learn something empowering from my little 7-year old brother. So, the food for soul is that, always think your teachers correct. You are the babies and they are your dads and moms. Sometimes, to most students, they think teacher shouldn’t do this, teachers shouldn’t do that, but trust me; THERE MUST BE CONCEALED REASONS. You just don’t know. Follow what they said, never comment. Dr Arimin, an MRSM PC ex-student quoted, in a mini-interview with me, “Respect your teachers. During adolescence and schooling times, you can improve on everything. If you suck in History, you can just read. So do any subjects. But when you disrespect your teachers, there is no cure to heal the wound”.

I SPENT HOURS WATCHING KIMORA.

Kimora is no stranger to those fashionistas. But fortunately, it’s not me. But I love her shows so much. Her life in the fab lane is something I considered, full of fabulosity and inspiration. I don’t know whether it just works on me or anybody else, but I love her ebullience and energy. Well, you can watch Kimora on E! , 5.50 pm everyday. They are repeats, but just enough to fill my unoccupied times, they are not rudimentary but full of Kimora’s vivid and esteemed personalities. I love the moments when she worked with her team, being with her family, and her super-crazy lives. My family sometimes prefers Keeping Up With The Kardashians. Ehmm, seriously, that’s nice too. I like Kris Jenner. Reality TV Shows are now dominating every channel, either local or international, and I'm looking forward to know, how they were done. Were they edited? Scripted? As I know, the houses will be full with cameras installed in every ceiling of bedrooms, bathrooms, kitchens etc. How can they live in life full of attentions and glares? I reckon there must be black and white agreements, stating “You can show up the scenes of fun, happiness and luxury, but don’t forget to cut the scenes of siblings’ rivalry, the moments that are really crazy to be shown to public”. But anyhow, reality TV shows are awe-inspiring. It took us a look on others’ lives that maybe, seem varied than ours. But, never demand of our lacks and their fortunes. Just look on positive sides okay.

NOW I AM SPECTACLED.

I've been visually-impaired very long time ago. Since I was 12 I bet. But, I thought it wasn’t a force to reckon with. So days, months, years went off with me being visually-impaired, leaving both of my eyes non-aided and I could really feel they were forced to see on something, maybe did some kind of light converging or diverging, like what I’ve learnt in Physics. But, it was forceful and I did really think it needed extra energy. And it went on until the last 4 weeks, where I felt I could no longer see what my teachers were scribbling on the white board, besides the fact that I was actually the front sitter. My eyes got tired easily, and I think prevention is always better than cure. I don’t want something serious to happen to my seductive eyes. So I decided to meet an optometrist. I did a vision test, and astoundingly, my right eye was the worst and it demanded 450++ dioptre lens. My left eye was slightly better, requiring 250++ D lens for it to come back alive and kicking. I was flabbergasted. The lens power difference is too big. So all this while, eventhough I viewed very blurry images, I can still see the world; its colours and expressions, thanks to my left eye.

So my spectacle came out just a little awkward. The right lens is bigger than the left. It looked kinda funny at first but I tried to get used to it. Honestly, I tried this spectacle in this one week and it sucks. I'm not free. I don’t feel it was me. I just want to take it off and throw it far. It was really annoying. I lose things very easily and it happened to this spectacle which went head over heels - in the kitchen, under my sofa, in the bathroom - It went all over the place. It made me going crazy! But tonnes of articles I've read on the internet jotting that the situation can get even more critical if spectacles are not put into use. So, no option, this is a life-or-death situation - I got to have it a try. I hate to envisage of visionless life. But, it’s really not cool. Always be thankful with your eyes. There’s no life without our amazing eyes.

HELLO, I’M NAZRIN, AND I’M A FOOD ADDICT.

Food always means everything to me. At home, I'm my very own cook. I eat what I cook, I savor what I baked. I love smoothies so much. Internet helped me a lot with the recipes. But sometimes, it’s all up to my creativity juices. I create my own ice-cream and beverages. Just by using milo, a scintilla of coco powder, sweetened creamer, sugar, and ice cubes, you can turn them into something finger-licking good. My newest favourite; Tempura; I've never heard this name before (because of its alien-like name, I recommended you to google it first). But it tasted brilliant. Should try this at home. It all came out when my family and I were shopping at Tesco, and my younger sis took it home. I've finished packets of Tempuras, and I'm pretty sure that I'm gonna gain few pounds of them. I can never separate ice cream and cakes. I love chocolate cakes and ice-cream and I basically conflate them together all at once. I took just a few layers of choc cakes, and embellished them with delicious mouth-watering choc ice-cream, just on very top of it. And it tastes mamma mia.

AND NOT TO FORGET…

The SPM is coming, and we’re all bundled with nerves. SPM is not PMR and UPSR. I confessed, last-minute studies are not enough, I've gotta pound it out. MEN! (Much efforts needed) But sometimes, indulgence and lusts are what often block my desirable efforts. That’s why I need to psyche a lot. In most times, prayers and blessings are always the perfect healers. So I hope everybody, pray for me so I'm not going to turn crazier, and blessed with more humane ethics. CIAO!

p/s: An undying gratitude to my MAKOM teamers. Irfan, Hajar, Syaza, Mu’azr, Aimi, Irina, Feky, Nasha, Din, and also Khufiyah, we’ve proven that we’re the best, and our team did excellent work in 2011. You’re my greatest friends ever and our friendship will be eternal, imperishable to heaven! (exaggerated:p)

p/s/s : I'm going to make an ultimate declaration, I hope you all listen. I love you so much Aiman! (Thank you for being my savior in most times J)

p/s/s/s : Don’t get it wrong, Aiman is a girl. Love doesn’t mean love. It means gratified, and thankful.

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What have I done with my holiday + Rewinding the Reality Bites and Glitches of me at 16

2010-12-20T23:10:00.000-08:00

Well, how to start...I cant believe the time is flying by just too fast. Slow down, chill. This year's final holiday was insufficient. No idea why, but basically, when I'm at home, ill be turning into a wild partying guy. For the whole approx. two months, no word of "Books", "Studying" coming out of my luscious lips. Holidays are meant for freedom so there I was. Free of mindfreaks and magnifying glasses. What depresses me a lot, is - my internet cable was stolen again by nasty hasty individuals who just live for drug. So, Im losing contact with the real world continuously, until I hit the CC for Internet. Seriously, Im dying for it. So, in a nutshell, there's NO BOOK AT ALL being with me during holidays. It's not even in my mind. Everybody's goin for a tuition, but not me. Im so laid out despite the holiday's inadequacy. So, what did I do?

#1 ON THE BED - SLEEPING.

Most of the hostel people and the boarding school denizens, they knew how it was to be there. Full of insanity, fast-pace of time, evilness, craziness, boringness, and undisclosed desires and lusts. So, the chances were widely opened, and all I have to do was to take everything off, lie on bed and sleep. At home, I slept very late satisfying myself with fave tv shows (which ranked at 2nd position in the list) Often at 3 or 4. Sometimes I'll be waiting until it's five thirty so I can pray Suboh as well, (Im a good Muslim) Time to hit the bed was basically very close to the dawn. The hibernation continued usually until 2..30 o'clock, the latest in the record, 4 o'clock. It was just fun, Should try this at home. The feeling of freshness, and a great moan of relieve will drive you nuts, after waking up. Try it !!

#2 DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES, REAL HOUSEWIVES OF NEW JERSEY, MASTERCHEF, HBO MOVIES, ROYAL PAINS, ALL FOX SHOWS, MOVIES, MOVIES, MOVIES - TV IS THE THE BEST POLICY

Imagine a set of a convincing theater system with an exceptional TV, plus, lights-off scenery with maggi in hand while watching Poisedon and Doomsday. Nothing can beat it. I did this at night. I love thriller and epic movies, romantic comedy and investigation kinda stuffs. But, an Illuminati-themed Angels & Demons, was a bit confusing. I cant reconcile the scenes and incidents in the movie. But the best Ive watched until now was The Reader starring Kate Winslet and Ralph Fiennes. That movie was breathtaking and artistically beautiful. It was about a 15yo boy having an affair with an older, unable-to-read woman. Winslet was stunning with her acting in the movie. No wonder she was nominated in a lot of awards thru the movie. MTV offers everything I ever wanted. At home, MTV was the channel with the highest usage frequencies as my family love it so freaking much.

#3 MUSIC AND DANCEFLOOR

Undeniably, music was my bestfriend during the holidays. I prefer pop and R&Bs. Florence + The Machine was brilliant. I love Cosmic Love so much. Very Picasso. In our family area, at home, we've got a PC with home theater sys. which we frequently tuned to favourite danceable tunes ie. Michael Jackson's evergreens, Kylie Minogue's, tATu's, Rihanna's, and lots of Jason Derulo's. We'll be spinning and dancing crazily, ignoring all the fact that we're old to do so. Who cares, it was a lot of fun. We also often switched to channel 851 on Astro, the Radio Channel. There were some radio stations choices and it included Tamil, Chinese, Orang Asli music. So, we've done sorts of 1Malaysia spontaneus dance with the music on. Sometimes, my mom would do so. We can't just stop laughing out loud afterwards.

#4 EATING OUT

Im not sure how many plates of food Ive savoured each day. Minimum of five. All kinds of food, u name it - ayam goreng, sup telur, sup ekor, tom yam, sup tulang, Cornetto, and all stuffs - have i tried. Nothing can beat the deliciousness of budu comel. I enjoyed cooking too. Ive made nasi goreng and mee goreng for the whole two months. I ate a lot of bread with peanut butter, i knew it sounded crazy, but it was genius. It was tastier than u thought. Exceptional. Mamma Mia. It's a certain Ive gained lots of proteins and carbs this hols.

So, rewinding the moment of being 16; it was such a priceless moment. I was a 4th former at MRSM PC. The most important thing happeneing to me at 16 was -I managed to control my big ego, hearing to the others' points of views. Maybe it's just the part of growing process. No idea. Previously, no one was right except me. So, currently, I started learning ways of considering the societies' opinions. Glitches Ive ever encountered was the Identity Crisis that had driven myself

crazy. It's just, it's hard to determine who you are actually. We human beings, wanna be this and that. We wanna be Perfect. We worked for it, but sometimes, it was just not coming in our direction on the right way. Ive learnt how to lose things and how to deal people we don't like. Remember,

WE LOSE SOMETHING, WE GAINED SOMETHING

2010 taught me a lot about the people and their natures. 2010 was also a great year for me. Wish to do more on 2010. Hustle, hustle, hustle. Can't believe the fact Im Seventeen. SPM, here I come.

Bye. (too tired of typing....)

Tunas Saintis 2010 + Cikgu Nazimah's blog review + Feelings and Emotions + etc.

2010-09-30T01:27:00.000-07:00

No word can describe how did I feel for about months, being away from my blog, because of... yeah, still Busy-ness. In my previous post, I've mentioned about my homesickness and all, back and forth, but trust me (I've said this to myself) Homesickness is just very temporary. Lasts for 2-3 hours only. What makes me forgetting it, and have life of technicolour is again, busyness. You can just wonder predict yourself what is going to happen to you, what is happening to you and what had happened to you. But, in fact, everything you felt is a total myth. You don't know yourself. But, no matter what, continue cruising on life, as what you've wanted it to be. I'm the Nazrin who love great inspirational words such as Great, Believe, Yeah !, and so on. I love quotes. Im thinking on publishing a book, one fine day (Cikgu Nazimah's fav phrase) where I can motivate tons of people to continue living this magical Earth, with enthusiasm and inspiration. Maybe it's something cliche for me to say, YOU CAN DO IT!, or BELIEVE IN YOURSELF !, or YOU'RE THE BEST!, or NO ONE IS AS GREAT AS YOU! (btw, I love exclamation marks). During a Leadership Camp Ive attended held by school counselor, Im attracted with one saying; "EVERYTHING IN FRONT OF US ARE FOR US TO PONDER" which means, Allah had made us seeing something, in a time, which is not seen by others. (I know this sounded quirky, but, for instance, when we see a violence happening a very few inchs from our eyes which the others don't, Allah did that for us to ponder, and to act.)So, from now onwards, I started not to take something Ive seen very granted, because it's just meant for me, to act.

Hah, switching to another character of Nazrin - fun. MRSM Pengkalan Chepa will be hosting the 2010 MRSM's National Tunas Saintis. So, everyone in my maktab had been putting thousands kilograms of efforts in making this big event of the year, an also big success. The've been hands-on with all the microscopes, stage decoration, etc. At first, I'm very pleased of going home, (as all the people are going to clear up the maktab to place for the contestants. It's not just for fun, but I have a very crucial urgent doctor's appointment, regarding my asthma problem. But, on one fine day, Ms Ashiqin, best known as Mummy, called me for a multimedia slide show during the closing. OMG, i must go home. Medical's kinda stuffs. But, after thing awhile, I think it's better for me to stay here, assisting them with all the to-dos as this is a very experience of a lifetime. So, as Ive could see with my two eyes, everybody was running out of hands doing this and that. What amazed me is the very effective organisation or simply, Ahli Jawatankuasa. Every meeting's running smoothly with everyone doing their very own work. God-willing this Tunas Saintis is going to be a boom that will carve the historical moment in everybody's coming's memory box.

Believe it or not, I've never felt drowsy during Cikgu Nazimah's Chemistry class. I don't mind if Chemistry is going to be four periods per day, I totally don;t mind. I felt energetic of going to the lab. What makes it fun and magical is absolutely the Chemistry guru and master, Cikgu Nazimah Mohd Isa. She was TRULY BESTOWED with GREATNESS, MOTIVATION, EFFECTIVE SENSE OF HUMOUR, CUTENESS, FRIENDLINESS, and all sorts. She has her very own approach, that makes Chemistry very fun to me. (I'm struggling to get 100% for it!) I just adore the way she talked, taught and most importantly, her natural smile that will drive everyone crazy. She's a genius. By the way, Ive checked her blog at http://chemistrytip.blogspot.com and it's very inspirational. It will be making you a day. Go on and check it out !

I've been doing this post, days before Tunas Saintis 2010, now Im going to back to work. Bingo, time's up. Bye.

p/s : VMA 2010 is a little let-down. VMA 2009's much way betta.
p/s/s : Thanks Cikgu Nooraroslily ! Haha.

Everything Is Just Not Right... isn't it ? plus : I can't bare with HOMESICKNESS !

2010-05-02T00:31:00.001-07:00

I don't know. My current life is full of wrongs. Too many I shouldn'ts just drive me crazy. Sometimes, I need somebody to counsel and brighten me up, but it's hopeless. I'm writing this, minutes before going back to MRSM. Life there could be really boring and annoying eventhough I'm in everything. It's just not same as my previous life in MRSM PT. I know it sounded cliche but that's reality bite for me now. I am now at the fullest insanity.

Sometimes, I'd tought it's better not going to school, being a normal (you know, daily schools are just fine) and have my life like any other teens. My life is awfully boring and I miss my mate, Zulfakar so much. Friends there don't share interests as mine. They're all cute and nice, but that's not what I want. OMG, wanna be at home ! Feels like flying to Rom and have weeks spent there. I'm so sick. I need therapy. Even Miley's songs couldn't cheer me up.

I just to end it up. A year and a half to end it up. Better bear with it, break a leg, and straight A plusses will make me relieving the breath I hold so long. My God, wanna end this up ! QUICKLY ! I don't wanna go to school !!!

One more thing, thing that made me angry when there's no teacher coming to class, one day. So I decided to just TAKE A NAP, NOT SLEEP, just for secs, but after some times, there was a teacher coming to my class and cynically sounded me up. It's my mistake actually for wrongly saying that I sleep at 12. It's not. I slept at2 and woke at 6. It's just because I finished my homework. She said to me in front of the class; Look at others , they aren't sleeping. Did you also sleep in previous MRSM Pasir Tumboh ? I've got no idea how did she know it. But she sounded so cynical that I'm angry at that time. She looked at my name tag and said, where's your songkok.. ? OOwwhhh... come to PC wanna change image ... eh ? That hurts me the most. I just dislike when someone tried to talk to my personal things that I dont really comfy to talk. I think she got her kids studied in PT and she knew me (cz Im famous so what ?). I don't know but she sounded so rebellious and cynical. I hope that's just my feeling. Truly, I'm hurt eventhough it's just a very small thing that one should'nt make it big. But, by hook or by crook, I'm hurt, cause I'm not a robot. I'm not sleeping lah ! I'm just taking a nap when the teachers are not around ! Taking a nap by 15 minutes enhance productivity by 23 percent ! I'm not taking it for 15 minutes but just some secs. Moreover I don't sleep in class- when teachers are teaching - like everybody did. I DON'T !!!

Ahhh... Just forget about it. Maybe it was just my feeling that I shouldnt get trapped into it. I believe everything happens for a reason. Btw, I'm still full of homesickness. After this, going back to PC, and it's sick !

p/s : Can't wait going to Jeli for MB.
p/s/s : Love my homeroom teacher so much. Ms Nurun Nazneen.

Bye.

After so much hardships, finally… MRSM PC – not up to expectation ???

2010-03-14T18:00:00.000-07:00

Don’t get it wrong. This controversial post has the potential to be MRSMPC’s bulletin headline. Anyway, what I mean with not ‘up’ to expectation is not something serious. Besides the amenities and physical looks which are, not to say- TERRIFYING !, the mosquitoes are too many ! Just hate comparing it to my former school MRSM PASIR TUMBOH, but I think PT’s much better , - in this aspect. Too much to say, so Im gonna post it, with words and stars (over 5) describing it, in points, just like in Debate…(Haha)

• RULES – MODERATE – 4 STARS
Not too ketat and I can adapt to it. But, no BOYS n GIRLS sitting too close (This is just 4 juniors…ooopsss!) Girls have to wear socks but they’ve never done b4 this in their former schools. But, it’s WAJIBAL-GHUNNAH 4 them to do that. Sandals – ALL DAY LONG !!! This is my first time, adapting to sandals… Sandals are ugly, but RULES ARE RULES. Got to appreciate it.

• SENIORS – LOVE ‘EM. – 4 ½ STARS
At the very first day, we’ve been introduced with all the abangs and kakaks yang amat baik2 n sporting. The most attractive one to my eyes was Abang Umar. He’s humorous. (I know ur reading right now, don’t perasan…) Just love his style in giving speech and holding the ceremony. If I’m not mistaken, he’s the LDP’s vice president. I wonder – why that kinda guy couldn’t be the BWP…. BWP’s President is funny Abang …….’llah. (Cant remember his name.. But it ends with the ‘’lllah’ sound at the back) He’s too funny, just in my eyes I thought - esp. when he gave a speech. Not like abg umar who was very humorous, but HIS STYLE IS FUNNY, BUT HE’S NOT MAKING IT. More seniors…., ABG SAMAWI ! Baik, tapi sometimes too horrified seeing him face2face. Guess what, he sounded so STRICT when there were roll-calls. Still remembering all these words, “………kalau xnak kena bodyglove kat muka”,” and blah-blah-blah…. But, HE’S BAIK. In a nutshell, SENIORS ARE JUST OKAY !!!

• SMILING CULTURE ! – LOVE IT ! n SICK OF IT…. (haha) – 3 STARS
Being in PC means a lot. When we are facing seniors, we’ve gotta smile to ‘em. 4me, it’s not a problem as ive done this b4 in my former schools. What I see is, the SENIORS GOT RED FACES when we smile to em ! Smiling doesn’t mean “Cantiknya kakak….” Or “Handsomenya abang…” But they are just to show respects to them. Anyway, it’s great to smile to them as most of them will give it back to us. Sick of it? No… It’s just an expression used to describe, when we mis-smelt to the juniors which look like seniors. Imagine, there are 300 something new arrivals – f4 students, and they come from all walks of like. Ada yang besar, kecil, panjang, pendek and so on. So, differentiating their faces are just too hard. Anyway, I don’t care about smiling, and remember – As it’s sincere and from the hearts, it counts.

• EATING STUFFS – Mamma Mia – 4 ¾ STARS.
The foods are just okay. Burgers sold by Pak Lam yang kiut are genius. I just Mak Lam’s handmade ABC. It’s super-Genius. Imagine, Ice, cream, nuts, sweets, and jellies; all in one mouth, the coolness just drives me crazy. Love having “rendezvous” with Mak Lam as she’s an ENTERTAINER !!! Sharp @ 11.45 and some seconds, I’ll be making my way to Pak Lam’s stall (somewhere in MRSMPC) cz I knew that no one will be there at this time. Buying ABC and burgers are just excuses, I JUST WANT TO TALK WITH THE ABC GIRL- the cute MAK-LAM !!! Huhuhu… One more thing, provided foods (DS) are great, but the annoying DS GIRL just drive me crazy. Too gedik. But, anyway, should be thankful to her (she’s the only gedik girl, the rest – OKAY !) as she yg bubuh lauk-pauk to me…

• COMPETITION !!! – Gotta work it out ! – 5 stars
Competition in PC is really tough. Tougher than I’ve tought. Even on the very first day, new 4th formers started to show their true colours. There are lots of representatives in events. That inspired me a lot. When a BM Debate try-out was held, my god, lots of people coming to have a shine in it. And they are SUPER-GREAT ! I’m not freeing this “white dove coming to my house” as Debate is what I keen on, seriously. But this was in BM not an English debate; which ive used to be into. But, doesn’t matter, just 4 trying and not to say, fun. Alhamdulillah, Im the chosen one ! with 4 more friends of mine. We have become a team. Dramafest tryout ? Im in it… but the result was still not out yet…. Waiting 4 it.. But SERIOUSLY, COMPETITION IN PC IS QUITE HARD… Shining ? Absolutely, but in a proper way…. (cynical)

• TEACHERS AND LESSONS… - Hmmm…Okay la – 4 stars
Lessons in PC was a drive-thru ! Superfast ! Now, Ive got it, when people wanted to switch to other schools … It’s just because they couldn’t catch up with it… Just like me in the beginning… But Alhamdulillah, I managed to get all stuffs taught by teachers in class, after having discussions with friends and did some self-revisions… Subjek SPM is so far so good. Tapi, Physics is quite confusing, AddMaths will be easy to those who understood all the crazy unlogical formulaes… But, IT’S STILL COMPLICATED. The rest is okay… Teachers and staffs ? Okay !! Right now, my votes go to Ustazah who taught in PAI, cz she didn’t make me ZZZZZing in class – Ustazah Saniah. She’s so cute and I can’t describe her style – TOO CUTE, just like her.

• HOMEWORKS ? – SUPERB !!!! – 6 stars !
Nothing can beat homeworks in PC. Homeworks are super-duper BANYAK ! No time to play, but there’s time to sleep. Right now, I haven’t touched even one of the books that ive brought home. Btw, Ive gotta think the Science project that Ive gotta hold for SEM. Alaahhh, malasnyo nok perah otak… PHY + CHEM + ENG + BIO + BLAHHHH2 = ALL MASHED INTO ONE, making me at the fullest insanity.

That’s the review for MRSM PC. So far, 4 ¾ stars for MRSM PC. MRSM PC – My new home. My new Hope. MRSM PC taught me to be more realistic and competitive. Like was not like fairytale. We just cant simply do some spells, and life will be like what we want it to be. WE’VE GOTTA WORK IT OUT. Btw, I’m so shocked seeing David, the winner of Biggest Loser Asia (HMark Channel). He seemed to be a WEIRDO ! Something’s wrong with his physical appearance. No matter what, he’s the BIGGEST LOSER. Lost 82 kilos ! Unbelievable. That’s all for now. Don’t forget to check Ch [V] Spotlight with Cheryl Cole. She’s smoking hot.

Bye.

MRSM PASIR TUMBOH BREAKS THE HISTORY !!!

2009-12-26T20:23:00.000-08:00

Wow ! 24th Dec 2009 had been a very great day for me. Ive got 8As in PMR and I'm overjoyed !Im at the top of the world ! I'm happy ! Superhappy ! No words can describe how Im feeling right now. But, still planted my feet onto the ground. My college, MRSM PASIR TUMBOH, is Malaysia's greatest MRSM as it ranked no 1 for the 2009 PMR, with 71 % students getting 8As
(106 OUT OF 149) wow !!!

WE ARE THE CHAMPION !

The credits must go to the teachers actually. They'd been the pillars of strength to all of us, the 2009 PMR candidates. Thank you Tn Hj Adnan, the Principal. I hope that this victory could be the greatest present to him, as he'll be retired this year. Congrats, friends !

The Fear of PMR 2009 ; missing mates so much !!!

2009-12-05T10:24:00.000-08:00

Long time no blogging. Hello to all bloggers and everyone who is viewing mine (including the anonymous). I’ve got no time to blog cause I used all the time to relax, enjoy and not to say sleep as the weather right now at my place ( I stay @ Kelantan, MY) is very cozy and tranquil. Also, I’m getting my adrenaline moving very fast through my veins most of the time because the 2009 PMR result is gonna be out very soon. So, it’s just… I’m pathetic. Having cold feet right now…

For the PMR 2009, as I mentioned in my previous posts, it’s so-so, not so easy and not so hard. I’m very afraid especially in Science. I’ve got one wrong answer in the Paper 1 and it’s still good actually. But, for the Paper 2, I was a lil’ bit afraid about it. I just saw the scheme and thank God, most of the answers of mine are correct. But, the fear is still haunting me. I don’t know why. Btw, I also want to mention to all readers that I’ve got psychological problem. It’s not I’m crazy. Maybe I am. It’s just crazy. For example, I just love to think weird stuffs – things that I should never think. You’ll never can figure it out. For instance, whenever I breathe, I think how can I breath automatically, without controlling my lungs and so on ? Whenever I tried to think ‘bout it, I will start controlling my lungs and my breath. When I do that, it makes me sick and drives me crazy. But, I can’t stop it because my mind always asked me to do that. I can’t stop my mind, to stop the shit. Do you get it ? I know you don’t. Hahaha….

I’m always pondering the beautiful fantastic moments with my mates. I just love all of them. I miss their smiles, miss their anger, miss their cries, miss all of them and theirs. Especially Nazrie Adam. The only peer of mine who shares the same personality with me. He is an ordinary guy. He’s in Form 4 right now. He loves music. So do I. Whenever we meet, we just love to talk about newest songs and entertainment updates, we love to talk about Twitter, we love foods ! But, it’s been long time since I didn’t see him. I still remember when we were desperate of songs. It had been months since we could go home (We were at our college right now). So, we planned to go the Staffs Room which was still available (opened) at that time and used the Internet to download some songs. We transferred it into our mp3 players,, and savoured it enjoyably – Together. Nazrie said, it’s not bad to do that as we didn’t steal things. We just used it. Furthermore, the computer was already turned on and we just borrowed it to download songs. I just couldn’t stop laughing.

Graduation Day, Debate, So Much to Say !!!

2009-11-03T07:56:00.001-08:00

Recently, MJSC Pasir Tumboh organized a Graduation Day to all third formers of the college. And, gratefully, I was ranked at no 1 (as I stated in my previous post). The Graduation day went so-so, nothing's interesting. Btw, I also got the award for Best Academic Achiever ...Awww... But, I've more interesting thing to tell. My feelings, and how I feel, when I'm happy and when I received the award. At first, I was a lil' bit upset with my parents because I saw them too busy with their works. Yes, they did come, but, I can see the business on their faces. (Ahaa)Anyway, I'm always thinking that my mom would cry seeing me on the stage. But, I see nothing. But when I steepped out of the stage, Oh My God, I'm just a like A Celebrity !!! There were too many people lending their hands to me, just to shake hands and did some greetings... I was at top of the world at that time actually... My mom and dad also looked happy, but not as I expected. But, it's still okay...

But, the feeling that I wanna share is the feeling, of being the top. I'm not being proud of myself, but I'm just wanna share it. Yeah, when you are being idolized, you felt great. But, behind the feeling of greatness, you should know that YOU ARE BEING IDOLIZED, YOU ARE BEING OBSERVED, AND YOU ARE BEING JUDGED. You have to be carefuL

From left, Me, Umie Nornisya and Fariz.

Next, the Debate. This is one of the activity I faced after the PMR 2009. Yeah, I confessed that I'm a lil' bit overconfident at first, because I had not done any preparations for the debate. It's very spontaneous. And, my OVERCONFIDENCE turns to something bad. I swear. I'll never be. When I first giving my opinions and debating, I was a lil' bit kinda uhuh~uhuh... I was a lil' bit stopped at some times. And the hall of debate was quite quiet at that time. I was a bundle of nerves at that time. And I learn something. Never be overconfident. Never. My team members was Me, Fakar and Fariz. We were too happy and finally, Alhamdulillah, gratefully, WE WIN THE DEBATE. But, the best speaker goes to the one who was our opponent. She was great. She was perfect. Her speech makes us SPEECHLESS !!! Here is the pic.

Goodbye for now, see ya !

PMR 2009 review (Science is hard !!!), VMA 2009

2009-10-15T00:30:00.000-07:00

When I first stepped my feet onto the examination hall, I was a bundle of nerves and feel all the adrenaline moving greatly trough my veins. Opening the first paper, BM P1, quite okay. But when it turned to Science Paper 2, OMG, i was a little shocked and dazzled.

It was too hard, i think for students in PMR. But gratefully, I managed to answer all the questions, although I've got no idea whether it's right or wrong. But, when I pondered Ms Azmah, my science teacher, she said, "The Kementerian will make questions, standard questions, which means, all the questions can be answered by all type of form 3 students all over malaysia, whether they are from the MCKK, TKC, MRSMs, or even the students from rural ideas or at the country side, such as Manek Urai..." At first, I can't stop laughing becase for me, Ms Azmah has a good sense of humour and she's able to make anyone smile, without joking. (But, we're not jerking those in Manek Urai... sorry)

But, if it is true of what Ms Azmah said, I don't think that the PMR SCIENCE PAPER 2 questions can be all-answered by those who were in rural areas, and it need a very high IQ to think hat's the answer. Even I can't. But hopefully, all PMR candidates were satisfied of what they had done in PMR 2009. For me, I'm always prayin for my victory of getting 8As (as I stated in my Friendster page). Pray for me and all PMR candidates who had just sit for it.

Well, PMR's finished. Let's take a sneak peek on the MTV Video Music Award 2009. Overall, besides the Kanye and Taylor controversial VMA Moments, I think the MTV VMA was incredible and great. I love Madonna's speech, MJ's dance, Janet Jackson tribute to Michael Jackson, Pink's great stunt, Beyonce;s dance, Lady GaGa, Russel Brand and so on. It was i incredible.

I think, I'm going for now. Bye.

Just pondering my mates of 2A

2009-09-26T03:42:00.000-07:00

This is my hand-made video of my class when I was in Form 2. 2 Ability. I love you all.

PMR - Finally !!! (Plus, MRSM PASIR TUMBOH'S VICTORY IN PMR TRIAL 2009)

2009-09-26T00:30:00.001-07:00

On this 7th of October 2009, all third formers all over Malaysia will be sitting for Lower Secondary Assesment (PMR 2009) and I can't wait for tha moment to come. As we all know, the third formers (especially of MJSC Pasir tUMBOH) has put a lot of effort in realising the dream of the college to be MRSM's No 1 in Malaysia for PMR 2009. As all MRSMers know that Pasir Tumboh is ranked at numebr ONE for the trial. Wow !!!

So we are all too glad to have the PMR which is just around the corner because we want to end this up... After the PMR, we'll have one-week holiday just for 3rd formers -as the treat for breaking our leg all year long. We hope that MRSM PT will be the winner again for the PMR.

I am posting this a week before the PMR, which was on the holiday of Eid-ul-Fitr - for 7 days. You know, I did nothing in this week, and just few hours later, I'll be leaving home for school, hoping that ALL THE MEMORIES OF 8 SUBJECTS were still in the mind !!! You know, I'm too lazy to do ll that)

Btw, I've got a very happy news to share with all the readers. In the trial, my GPA was 3.95 and my overall GPA (CGPA) was also 3.95 !!! And, I ranked at the number one of all over the students !!! As my college was also ranked at no 1 of all over the other colleges, I think u know what I Mean !!! And for the Graduation Day which will be held on this 28th of Oct, I think I will get the award as the Best Student for Three Years !!! (I am thrilled)

Yeah, I know that we shouldn't be too happy of our achievements but we can do it, JUST TO APPRECIATE OURSELVES, - of what we do and what we had done.

So I can conclude from these all that :

1)PMR - Just a few days to go !!! (7th october)
2) My college Pasir Tumboh was the first ranker of all over MRSMs of Malaysia.
3) I was also the first ranker of my college

PRAY FOR MY VICTORY IN PMR 2009 SO THAT I WILL GET 8AS AND WILL LIVE THIS LIFE HAPPILY AVER AFTER !!!!

I Wish all the best to all 3rd formers all over Malaysia. We can make 8AS mine. We can do it. TRUST ME. Bye.

Fasting Month, PMR and So On... (plus, watch this amazing choir performance!)

2009-08-21T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hye there. It's a great pleasure for me to be right in front of my notebook and continue blogging. I'm now, counting the minutes to countdown for Lowar Secondary Assesment PMR which I'm going to sit for it this Oct. This week is a holiday week. By the way, it's a Fasting Month.
I'm going to enjoy my hols, TV, BOOKS, but - NO FOOD PLEASE.

As we all know, fasting month got a lot of benefits to those who cultivate it, eventhough they are not muslims. Fasting is an integral part of many of the major religions including Islam, Judaism and Christianity. Many are dubious as to whether the physiological effects are as beneficial as the spiritual promoted by these religions. There is a significant community of alternative healers who believe that fasting can do wonders for the human body.

A fast does not chemically begin until the carbohydrate stores in the body begin to be used as an energy source. The fast will continue as long as fat and carbohydrate stores are used for energy, as opposed to protein stores. Once protein stores begin to be depleted for energy (resulting in loss of muscle mass) a person is technically starving.

Now, I'm gonna share some of the benefits we can devour when we FAST.

A speedy recovery
When individuals try to make major dietary changes without the benefit of a fasting experience, they often become frustrated. The transition to a healthful eating pattern can make you feel sick. Symptoms such as fatigue, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, abdominal pain and bloating, joint pain, headaches, skin rashes, irritability, depression, etc. are just a few of the common problems that can arise as the body attempts to eliminate toxins, metabolic byproducts, etc., and adjust physiologically to a health promoting diet.

Overcoming addictions
Addictions to drugs such as alcohol, cocaine, nicotine and caffeine are examples where fasting can dramatically reduce the often protracted withdrawal symptoms that prevent many people from becoming drug-free. Most people are surprised at how easy it is to quit smoking or drinking with the help of fasting.

Uterine fibroid tumors
Fasting can often be especially important in situations where drugs or surgery have been recommended. When uterine fibroid tumors contribute to pain and excess bleeding, a hysterectomy — removal of the uterus — is often recommended. A proper fast will often dramatically reduce the size and effect of these tumors. I have treated numerous women who have been able to successfully avoid hysterectomy using conservative methods. Ovarian cysts and cervical dysplasia also often respond favorably.

Back and neck problems
Back and neck pain are remarkably responsive to conservative care. In my institution I utilize fasting, rest and exercise, improved posture and body use, and when appropriate, chiropractic manipulation and physical therapy. It is interesting to note that often patients with chronic pain who have received extensive treatment, including drugs, surgery and manipulation, will experience dramatic improvement through the use of fasting.

And so many more which can be researched on the internet.

That's all for right now. Btw, Ive found something great in Youtube that I can share with you all

School, Outdoor Activities and, EXAM.

2009-05-09T12:18:00.000-07:00

Yea, I know I have 'LOST CONNECTIVITY' with blog since a lot of time. You know, i'd been stucked with tonnes of works to be done. And that's not all, I've got thousands of curricular activites such as Debate and so on. And now, I'm to stressed.

You know, I'd been leaving school almost A MONTH, only for this year. And guess what, A LOT OF HOMEWORKS, A LOT OF REVISION, - I'm STUCKING INTO IT. I can do nothing. Yeah, maybe the're someone will tell me, SCHOOL'S NO 1, OTHERS AFTER SCHOOL. But, I SAID NO WAY. I know, I just have to divide my time wisely, because If we fail to plan, we plan to fail.
But, now I'm trying to catch up all those things. I'm now like a blind,
can't understand some of the teachings by my teachers. Especially, Ms Azmah when she taught Science. She's right now teaching Electric Current, Electromagnetism. Huh ! It's very hard to understand. But, when I asked some of my buddies, they said they get it well. This means that,
THERE'S SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH MY BRAIN. But, wait, I'm not Brainless. I have brains and I know, my brain can do EVERYTHING THAT I WANT. I'm also hoping that I'll be the Top ranker back after being a 'veterant' for a quite long time. I know that this is THE CLIMB. I'm going to break my leg and do everything, and maybe THIS WILL CAUSE DEATH (just kidding) just to get 4.oo. I wanna break PT's tradition.

One more thing, anyone who read this, could you please tell me, what's wrong with me cause sometimes, I think my brain got problems. Sometimes, I have to think DAMN HARD until it hurts my brain, to get the answer, bla-bla. I also feel, when i'm thinking, THERE'S A VIRUS, blocking the THINKING PROCESSES. I know, this might sound silly, but it's the truth. I've got psychology problem. But, I'm too ashamed to told this to someone.

Okay, it's already 3.33 am. I've just finished doin my KGT, KKS, and some of the pamplets asked by Ms Rosida for me to do it. You know, I love helping others with computer stuffs. By the way, check out AiKO robot, it's great. Not that great actually. But, she's gorgeous. (Naughty). I'm leaving.

Warisan

2009-01-08T09:11:00.000-08:00

Recently, Pengarah MARA telah mewajibkan semua pelajarnya menyanyikan lagu warisan setiap kali roll-call. It's a lil bit creepy, but Ill try to sing it. Teachers said that they used to sing it, when they were small. Lirik dia boleh tahan, maklumlah, this is the first time I heard this Warisan song. Sebelum ini, saya kenal lagu Warisan yang dinyayikan Sudirman sahaja.

Anak kecil main api
Terbakar hatinya yang sepi
Air mata darah bercampur keringat
Bumi dipijak milik orang

Nenek moyang kaya raya
Tergadai seluruh harta benda
Akibat sengketa sesamalah kita
Cinta lenyap diarus zaman

Indahnya bumi kita ini
Warisan berkurun lamanya
Hasil mengalir ketangan yang lain
Peribumi merintih sendiri

Masa depan sungguh kelam
Kan lenyap peristiwa semalam
Tertutuplah hati terkunci mati
Maruah peribadi dah hilang

Kini kita cuma tinggal kuasa
Yang akan menentukan bangsa
Bersatulah hati bersama berbakti
Pulih kembali harga diri

Kita sudah tiada masa
Majulah dengan maha perkasa
Janganlah terlalai teruskan usaha
Melayukan gagah dinusantara...

Ceritera Aku dan Cita-Cita

2009-01-08T08:50:00.000-08:00

Wah, sudah lama rasanya saya tidak membuka blog saya. Rasanya, hampir setahun.
Kalau dulu pun, saya sering menggunakan blog untuk tujuan suka-suka dan hiburan.
Tetapi, sekarang, (mungkin kerana factor usia yang semakin meningkat) saya cuba
untuk memuatkan segala perkra-perkara yang terdetik dalam fikiran saya ke dalam blog kerana according to the one of the books that I have read, one of the things that we can do to improve our health is by BLOGGING ! Ini kerana semasa kita sedang memblog, segala persoalan, tanda-tanya, emosi dapat kita luahkan di dalam blog kita.

Sekarang, saya berada di Tingkatan 3, dan akan menghadapi one step in my life iaitu PMR yang gue takut banget !! Yaa, saya tahu, to get 8As is not easy as we think, but a lot of efforts must be done to make the dream come true. Sebenarnya, semua orang boleh mendapat 8a. Tetapi apa yang saya mahukan adalah bukan setakat 8A, tetapi lebih daripada itu. I WANT EVERYTHING THAT EVERYONE DOESN’T HAVE. Saya mahukan semua guru mengatakan bahawa saya patut dicontohi (I’m not pulling my own leg, but I just wanna share what I’m feeling), saya mahu saya dinobatkan pelajar cemerlang no 1 seluruh Malaysia, seringkali keluar tv dan lain2. I know, kadang2, that’s weird. Tapi, kepuasan apabila kita mendapat sesuatu yang luar biasa amatlah berbeza daripada biasa. Ini kerana, kita sudah melakukan perkara yang luar biasa !

Seringkali saya melihat pelajar-pelajar cemerlang diluar sana, saya sering terfikir-fikir, mereka boleh mencapai 17 As, 20As, mengapa saya tidak ? Kita dilahirkan sama, tetapi mengapa kita tidak boleh mendapat keputusan yang cemerlang ? Kerana guru? Ibubapa? Buku teks? Buku rujukan? Nope ! That’s not the reasons, but the main key to success is OURSELF because, WE WHO ARE GOING TO SEAT FOR EXAM, NOT THEM. Mungkin juga, ibubapa, guru2 antara factor-faktor, tetapi sebagai contoh, tokoh terkena, Abraham Lincoln, beliau datang dari sebuah keluarga miskin. Tetapi, TIMBUL DALAM HATINYA BAHAWA,

‘’I MUST DO SOMETHING TO AVOID THE SAME THINGS HAPPEN TOMORROW’’

. Maknanya, dia MESTI lakukan sesuatu supaya hari-hari mendatang tidak akan berulang dengan SAMA dan begitu sahaja. Jadi dia beliau telah berusaha untuk DO SOMETHING. Hingga pada suatu ketika, beliau terpaksa berada di muka pintu kelas semata-mata untuk ‘mencuri’ mendengar apa yang diajar oleh guru. Beliau berusaha bersungguh-sungguh, hingga akhir sekali, beliau menjadi seorang tokoh yang Berjaya, dan dikenang hingga kini, walaupun jasad dan rohnya telah tiada. Itu MAT SALLEH ! Mereka mahu berusaha !!! Tapi, lain ceritanya dengan orang melayu kita. Mereka, PINTAR, BERKEBOLEHAN DAN BIJAK, setafaf dengan mat salleh, tetapi THE WAY THEY APPLICATE dia punya kelebihan tu, amatlah berbeza berbanding orang putih. Orang Melayu, kita ambil contoh orang yang miskin. Misalnya, ayah dia seorang nelayan, 20 tahun akan datang, nelayan jugalah, anaknya akan jadi. Ini kerana, mereka tidak mahu mengubah nasib mereka. Mungkin mereka tidak diberi pendedahan kepada itu ini, tetapi, harus timbul atau terdetik di hati mereka, ‘’ SAMPAI BILA AKU NAK JADI NELAYAN’’ Persoalan inilah yang dapat mengubah siapa kita sekrang, dan kita akan berusaha bersungguh-sungguh untuk merubah nasib hidup kita kelak. Kalau timbul pun, mereka buat tak endah. ‘’Aaahhh…Malas ah fkir..’’ Itulah yang sering bermain di bibir anak melayu kita hari ini. Saya bukan hendak mengutuk anak melayu kita teapi sekadar untuk renungan bersama dan supaya KITA SEDAR siapa kita jika nak dibandingkan dengan seluruh orang di muka bumi ini. Jika kita tidak wujud, ada kesan tak kat dunia? Atau, dunia semakin aman jika kita tiada? Persoalan inilah yang sentiasa bermain di fikiran saya. Sebab itulah, saya mahu menjadi seorang yang disanjungi ramai. Maknanya, jika saya tidak wujud dalam dunia ini, maka dunia akan merana. Begitulah hendaknya…..

P/S : Insya-Allah, apa yang saya perkatakan di atas tu, bukan omong kosong semata-mata.Tetapi, saya akan berusaha sedaya upaya untuk mencapai cita-cita saya, walau sesukar mana pun. Cukuplah sekadar mukadimah untuk kali ini. Till the next archive.